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Do your CPTSD symptoms come in cycles rather than being always present? — What confuses me when I read the posts here is that a lot of people describe constantly being in states triggered by CPTSD. It seems to me that I have more like episodes where something triggers me (r…
I feel like I was cursed or hexed by someone. How can I get rid of this? — I suddenly feel off. I don't understand what is happening to me but I can't think about anything else other than my past mistakes in my life and insecurities and struggles and negative thoughts in my…
Something mentioned but not talked about, Serotonin. — What do we know about Serotonin? \-Its produced in the gut, \-Low levels often correlated to anxiety and depression \-Happy hormone, not to be mistaken with dopamine , the pleasure hormone where …
Meditation hasn’t worked for me — I’ve tried meditation for years. I used to do simple breath work, I tried frequencies binaural beats etc, and for a while I did transcendental meditation. None of them helped me. So recently just a f…
Intermittent affection as an unrelenting thirst — There's this gnawing, relentless, hollow sensation. Ever present. It's a feeling that's far away, aching, cavernous...*starvation.* An unrelenting emotional hunger that burrows into the core of my b…
Wave 1 introduction to focus 10 (first timer) — Wave 1 introduction to focus 10 \- Afterwards felt very focused, aware. Face feels numb. \- During focus 10, I saw a vision of a black male outside a building walking, then hearing gunshots inside …
I am fucked totally (17y Male) — Originally i wanted to post this on r/selfimprovement but couldn't due to having a New account. (read the full story to understand the whole issue please) TL;dr :- The person is struggling with sever…
Manifestation didn't came but still feel like it's mine — First of all I am not a good at English,so please ignore the my grammar errors. So I was robotically Affirming that I passed this ex\*m.When affirming, I truly felt like it's mine and I already have i…
How Am I Supposed To Feel? What Am I Feeling? — So I (26F) just got out of my first real relationship with someone (25F) who I really liked - the day it happened (a week ago from tomorrow) I was devastated and begged her to stay, and about the same…
On incubi and sexual possessions — It’s been five years since I first began sensing invisible entities around me. I underwent psychiatric treatment throughout all that time, and my life eventually stabilized. I finally got a good job a…
My body was rejecting him from day 1 and I still chose to ignore the signs — I'm hoping someone who is in a similar relationship reads this and realizes they need to leave immediately. My body and just the universe as a whole gave me every sign to leave this man and I always t…
My (24F) boyfriend of 2 years cheated with my best friend and now I’m back at my parents house with nothing — Throwaway cuz this is messy as hell and I don’t want anyone finding it. So last month I walk in on my boyfriend and my “best friend” (who’s been like a sister to me since high school) in OUR bed. Like…
Is healing even possible? At my wits end. — So just some background. My healing journey started off really good. I grew up with alcoholic parents, was bullied a bit in school. When my Dad got in recovery he recommended al-anon to us kids fo…
I 22F just left my boyfriend but i feel absolutely nothing, what is wrong with me — I 22F just broke up with my boyfriend 22M of almost 2 years, i came from a very toxic relationship with an addict i dated for 4 years prior to this one. I thought he was the one, we had so much fun an…
My ex broke up with me over text 4 months ago [VENT] — hello, so idk who to tell this too, so im just gonna say it on here. My ex (16M) broke up with me (16F) around 4 months ago via text. This relationship almost lasted 2 years, and it was both our firs…
My ex broke up with me over text 4 months ago [VENT] — ​ hello, so idk who to tell this too, so im just gonna say it on here. My ex (16M) broke up with me (16F) around 4 months ago via text. This relationship almost lasted 2 years, and it was bot…
Becoming a therapist at a community mental health health center was the worst thing I ever did, and is causing me to relapse. I hate CPTSD. — Ever wonder what it's like to work as a therapist when you don't even want to be alive? Lemme tell you... First of all, for the record, I want it to be known that I am leaving my job after 6 months d…
After 4 years of being w/ my highschool sweetheart who went to the military, he cheated. — I can’t get the thought out of my mind. everything was going perfect and then he left I never had major issues in my relationship and everyone was shocked; he was never this type of guy, it’s like he …
Ndad hospitalised with brain bleed — I don't have anyone else to talk to rn and I need advice please. Been NC with nmum for 12 yrs, ndad for 6 years, this is about him. Just been sent a msg from a reliable person that nDad is in hospita…
Help Please — If I was getting ready for something and he was already ready and waiting downstairs, he'd shout up the stairs 'you're not putting makeup on are you? Why are you straightening your hair?' He told me …
Old Trauma Resurface - I Need To Talk To Someone — I had a secret relationship with a much older trainer from my college soccer team when I was about 20. For several years, seeing him almost every day, we developed a close bond before anything ever ha…
We broke NC but I still haven’t told him I’m pregnant — He Got in touch again temporarily and I was happy/neutral (I feel absolutely nothing towards him) that a line of communication had been opened, I have missed him especially bc I’m hormonal. However I …
Boyfriend cheated once, I forgave, and now he did it again — I just feel numb. The entire first month we dated he was talking to other women on Facebook dating and even brought it to Snapchat. Only stopped when caught. Cried and swore it would never happen agai…
I've tried entering a lucid dream as I am going to sleep, and here's my experience. Any advice? — So I've tried this twice. Both times went over an hour. The first time, I didn't get anything over my body becoming numb. The second time, however, was when I tried falling asleep for ssild but I coul…
Don't tell me to move on while still telling me that you love me — Our conversations are a mixture of sweet and salty. Heavy and lighthearted. I can see it in your eyes when you look at me. We used to be best friends. Now we struggle to remain acquaintances. Our insi…
Feeling Conflicted, Need Advice — I broke up with my bf of 4 years. To keep it short while still giving context, we had been having a mismatch in sex drives and physical touch. This wasn't an issue in the first 2 years, but then he st…
Unhappy with my life and don't know what to do about it — Need to get some things off my chest. Not 100% sure if this is the best sub for this but I couldn't think of anything better. Can't place exactly what's bothering me, nothing uncommon but it always …
I don't know what I just witnessed. — I'm f18 and studying for my exams coming up, I got angry about my water bottle being misplaced and called my dad out for it. In response, he started cussing me which I am usually used to. Then I cou…
My husband install tinder. — He doesn’t know if know. But i know he would say something like: I just install it... I didn't had s 3 xx . And all his family will support him. He works in another country. I can't revele so muc…
I have never felt loved — I’m 23, and I genuinely feel like I’ve never been truly loved by anyone. Because of the birthmark on my face, people have mocked me, laughed at me, and made me the subject of gossip for something I n…
Did I make the right choice ending things with my situationship? — I'm writing this post an ultimatum to myself that I won't think about this anymore. I (24 M) found myself falling in love with a (23F) and ended up having a situationship with her which I ended recent…
I just broke up with my boyfriend of two years and I feel like I’m in a state of shock please help — I honestly can’t even think right now my brain feels just like cloudy and I feel empty inside so sorry in advance if this post doesn’t really make sense grammatically. But anyway I don’t really feel l…
26M 25F - In a healthy relation 4yrs, but then came back to back incidents which haven't kept me in peace — **My fiancée (25F) had a boundary crossing/coercion incident with a coworker.** **The Background:** My fiancée and I have a long-distance relationship and are set to marry in July. We’ve fought incre…
How do I want to be alive? — I've been struggling with severe depression for a while now, I thought I was getting better but I just ending up becoming worse and completely numb. I can't tell if I want to die or not. Currently in …
I 29F wish I could leave this relationship. Confused and emotionally unstable? — I 29F started dating my husband in 2023. By the end of that year, I found out he had been sleeping with several other women. When I confronted him, he cried and begged for an apology. I forgave him, b…
How do you move on from someone you saw a future with but who didn’t choose you in the end? — I recently went through a breakup with someone I really cared about and saw a future with. We talked recently after not speaking for a while, and it felt like my last bit of closure. During the conve…
31F dating 32M. Lately I feel empty have you felt this way? — Hi there im not sure if I’m looking for advice or in need to vent out so I want to apologize. Lately I feel numb in my relationship I can’t see myself with anyone else it’s hard to picture my life wit…
You can listen to someone who just admitted they don't even have a paid account and just reads what they see online or listen to someone who's gotten more out of it in the last 30 days than four diffe…
is “fuck it” a feeling? when activated but not yet acted on: tense, restless, twitchy, irritable. nearing claustrophobic and literal suffocation. *aka me, right now, searching for cabin rentals 5 h…
It’s been a very difficult 24 hours for me. About a month ago I matched with a woman on Facebook Dating. She lived 2.5 hours away, but I messaged anyway. After a few messages, I suggested moving to t…
Gave my girls their Galentine’s presents today. Went to dinner and a basketball game with coworkers and genuinely laughed a lot. Now I’m home and feeling so… empty. Not sad exactly. Not crying. Just…
Oh, I’m going through the exact same thing. I remember being very happy before. Laughing a lot, finding joy in the smallest things. Now it feels like everything has been cast in this weird grey hue. I…
You’re not “the problem” because the spark isn’t there right now, but I do think you may be looking at love as if it is only a feeling. Love is also a choice, a duty, and a set of actions you keep tak…
People: Do it scared! Me: until when? People: until you don't feel scared anymore! Me later on: not feeling scared, but not feeling confident. Just feeling numb.
Cry. Did it for 40 years. Not sure how. Literally not a single touch from the opposite sex. I feel lonely and I cry. Then I get up and do something to forget. When I met someone who I felt was like …
I’ve never really intentionally tried to do it, I noticed a pattern between every time I had a WILD & noticed that each time I was simply engrossed into imagination (more so than usual) as I was borde…
how do I make sense of it with dissociation in the picture then? Even my insides are confusing, weird and numb.
Has anyone had experience with being a burnt out pursuer? My wife (avoidant) and I have being doing the chase and withdraw dance for years with a lot of me getting rejected. I also feel invisible in t…
HRT shot my blood pressure up and made my hands go numb. Noping out. Will do this the way my old lady ancestors did but with better nutrition and exercise. Edited to clarify this is systemic HRT. I’…
Almost 7 months after the breakup, and I’m now medicated for a severe depressive episode. Can’t sleep. Don’t find joy in anything; I just feel numb. If I think about my ex or the future that we lost, …
Quite alot over the years, started with philosophy and psychology then lead me into the spiritual, I'll write a quick look... The chimp paradox The 48 laws of power The power of now Then into spirit…
Yep! I totally get it. I have a large family and many friends who all gave their 100% support and love. And I still never felt so lonely. I lived in my parent’s basement for a year before I was able t…
It's rather complicated. We were good but this girl was in the picture for an year. Four months ago we got into a fight about this same girl. On the fight he told me something like "she will be always…
This is how it is for me. During f10 my body feels sort of tingly, then in f12 that feeling expands outward and my body become numb. Once I saw a face in f12 communicating something like don't try so …
:'( you will soon i'm sure. i became aware intellectually of this stuff a while ago it took like a year for my body to actually feel anything other than numb. <3
Do you think being broken up has anything to do with you feeling different? Without you realizing it was she a part of you becoming or feeling emotionally numb. I only ask because I was anxious and no…
A similar situation happened to me. I was numb. She said she fell in love with the old me. I discovered I have trauma and PTSD. I’m working on that now. We were together for 4.5 years. She said simila…
I fear they probably have so much experience with this that just blurting it out is totally fine. One time a therapist applauded me for getting angry at her and I thought she was just trying to keep i…
Do you forget conversations you had? Do you lose track of time? Do you ever feel like it’s difficult to find words? Can you name specific emotions? Do you ever feel, suddenly tired out of no where? D…
This is SO important! A lot of us have grown up in an environment where we learned to keep tab on everyone’s emotions but our own. My therapist told me “okay you have to learn about emotions and how t…
People who need to control and micromanage the things and people around them and go about it in passive-aggressive ways. Someone in a leadership position in my life was doing this recently and YIKES, …
I’ve already done enough damage. I don’t like admitting it or saying it out a lot of I was good at acads, I was good at the work that I did. Somewhat motivated too, I’m around rank 180/400 in my colle…
I have blocked him everywhere, but only to remove any hope of him coming back, so yeah it is no contact I don't know how to process everything though, I only had love for him and I feel numb, I am no…
And im glad you've come to share your emotions x. We all here for each other, we all feel it. So you know your not alone in this sub. Your got a damn army here! It's rough it does take time, trust me …
I can relate to this post a lot. Emotional neglect, which I think you did experience, can make it extremely difficult to connect with other people, but also with ourselves. It can make it hard to figu…
At this point I feel so much under pressure that , I just want to give in and I have gotten numb. I am just lost and tired of constantly fighting.
Personally it has been helpful in hospitals. I have a lot of medical trauma and "blank out" once I'm in a hospital system. I feel like this has helped it not be so painful? My friend wrote a whole "my…
Pink Floyd mentions this in their song, Comfortably Numb.
It's learned at an early developmental stage. You think pain is normal and your body is in a constant flashback loop trying to defend/reject/survive this pain by detaching and going numb.
I know for a fact my mother killed one of my cats and her own dog. I suspect she killed at least one other cat, and I was forced to put one cat down. The first was ‘her’ cat, who she got tired of whe…
I'd been called "too sensitive" growing up by my parents especially my mum and it led me to put on a persona/mask of being emotionally numb. I remember forcing my mouth to be straight too (and it stil…
I am in the same situation right now. I love him a lot and I still have feelings. But we tried everything and it just didn’t work! It’s for the better to let each other go for now. It’s a weird feeli…
I really relate to this. I'm 35F, Indian also been out of my house since 18. For years, I was the same, I wouldn't feel sad or cry about things. My career was going well, life looked great on the outs…
Are some people really stupid with their choices? Absolutely. Is everyone who gives into their impulses someone to look down on? Absolutely not. Not everyone was loved enough by a guardian to learn c…
I got tossed aside as well. I did not process anything until I moved to a new city and a year went by. I was numb. Boy were those the good times. Yeah the economy sucks but you’re a badass and can use…
this hit me right in the feels. got broken up with on monday. 4 years together, celebrated the 4th anniversary and 3 days later it is was over. soul crushing and i too left things too late (moving cou…
I heard it so many times... at one point I was just numb. I don't even have the strength to be angry, or to cry. I just don't care
I’ve told people… that kind of pain I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. To feel completely left alone carrying all these feelings that were at one point seemingly mutual… only for them to leave and not…
Spravato treatments has helped me deal with OCD and anxiety. I'm thinking of going on ADHD medication as a replacement for anti-depressants/lexapro. I've never tried it before and I think a low dosag…
Today I ticked off one of the Big Things on my things-to-sort-out-before-trying-to-date-list. I have a job. A great job even. With an equally good salary. And yesterday I got an apartment in my soon-t…
For me, by the time I've gone into vibrations, my body is mostly numb. I can feel it in my nerves, I can hear it, I can feel a really low frequency "hum" that feels like your cells are about to shake …