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Do your CPTSD symptoms come in cycles rather than being always present? — What confuses me when I read the posts here is that a lot of people describe constantly being in states triggered by CPTSD. It seems to me that I have more like episodes where something triggers me (r…

I'm lucky enough to have turned my podcast into a full time job - here's what I wish I had known — Hey all! Love this community. I'm really blessed to have turned my podcast into a full time job, getting over 200k downloads across 15 episodes upon launch. I'm working on more seasons, but I have had…

Recovering DA trying to reconnect with FA wife — For context: * I (40M) am a DA, my wife (41F) an FA. We have three children. * Together for 17 years, married for 13 years, distant/no-touch for over 10 years but stable and no deep conflicts. * Cont…

SATURN RETURN & TRANSITING SATURN/NEPTUNE IN ARIES POSTS PROBLEMS — # PROBLEMS WITH SATURN RETURN POSTS We are getting a lot of Saturn Return questions as transiting Saturn enters Aries. First, many of you think your Saturn Return just began today, Feb. 14, 2026 (usi…

DA healing update: searching my true self, my inner child finally seen — Some of you may know me at this point. I'm (40M) dismissive avoidant, my wife fearful avoidant (41F), together 17 years, married 13 years, 3 children. I've been working on my attachment style for 5 mo…

My first week with the Gateway Tapes — I am so grateful that I have been able to experience what I have already and I wanted to share. I’ve been doing guided meditations for astral projection for some time now with limited results. Last w…

Started gateway this week. I’m confused — Hello! I admittedly don’t have the most knowledge about the gateway tapes. I’ve listening to a couple podcast episodes about them but it sounded like this intense experience where you will astral pr…

How do I “do” therapy? — I started therapy recently after being diagnosed for the first time with depression and anxiety, but I really don’t enjoy it. I show up and I feel like it’s always having the ball put in my court so t…

My "Alzheimer technique" worked on my NMom again but I almost chickened out — About a month ago I shared a [post](https://www.reddit.com/r/raisedbynarcissists/comments/1qyh9x9/at_age_40_i_finally_found_what_works_with_my_nmom/) here how I visited my NMom after 3 years of NC and…

My ex destroyed his life after we broke up — I don’t even know why I’m writing this, but everything has escalated so much that I just need to get this off my chest. I (33F) was in a relationship for more than 14 years with my ex, let’s call him…

What if we could use Depression? — I had depression for 16 years, and one thing that helped me was shifting the perspective on it, Instead of seeing depression as anything else other than just a black hole that sucks everything thats…

Leaving, but it is complicated — This may or may not be in the right sub. I'm not sure if I fit into al-anon, nar-anon, or NAMI, but what I am struggling with right now does fall under the work I've been doing to break codependent tr…

If I Never Discovered Manifestation, I Probably Would Have Killed Myself. (NOT A VENT!) — **This isn't a vent, I'm just reflecting on how much Manifestation has changed me for the better, and hopefully, this post will encourage people who are new to manifestation to keep trying!** (Yes, I …

TheTelepathyTapes: Best episodes — Hi, I’ve recently started listening to "The Telepathy Tapes" podcast and I’m curious about your experiences with it. Which episodes did you personally find the most interesting or compelling? I’m e…

When do you know to end a relationship? — I (19M) have been with my girlfriend (20F) for about two years—we started dating in high school. Since I turned 18, I’ve been living with her, her mom, and her grandmother. Early in the relationship,…

Wave 1: episode 3 to 4 — Does anyone feel like the jump from episode 3 to 4 is massive? Is this normal going forward? We went from a guided meditation to basically ‘do it your self’ from one episode to the next. I didn’t rea…

If you're struggling with Meditation, this might be the push you need! — Apologies for the long-ish post, but I want to share this with everyone here, in case it helps them like it helped me. I used to think meditation was useless. I was a bit confused, a bit dismis…

How Many Times Can You Break Up Before It Sticks? — I’m having a really hard time getting over my ex, and I don’t know how to move on. We met 4 years ago and dated for about a year. The relationship ended largely because of me—I’m bipolar, but at the …

My story, just have a need to vent somewhere — 25 years old desperately trying to finish his uni to maybe finally have some independence, crying in the bathroom stall at the internship again. I guess I'll just put my story here to cope. Througho…

A wave of grief just hit me, just letting it out — I was no older than 13 or 14, we were out for a dinner, my parents, my brother and me. The place was crowded and dad was in line for placing the order, the waiter couldn't hear what my dad said and my…

TW: Cloanzepam withdrawal and suicidal thoughts??? — Hello everyone , I have been on clonaz and setralin for past 8 months due to panic disorder and anxiety issues. It was triggered by a panic attack later leading to me thinking I might have a serio…

Time to get help? — I am a 22f who has struggled with mental health and severe anxiety all her life. I grew up with Mom and Dad always fighting but being open to have me go to therapy since my mom was dealing with her me…

Emotional incest: What are your symptoms as an adult — Hey guys, I can’t let this topic go because I can’t find a real answer anywhere, but I know 100% that I was a victim of emotional incest by my BPD mother. I’m wondering if it’s possible to develop t…

[31M] My wife [32F] of 4 years (together 9) wants a divorce. We survived family deaths and her Bipolar 2, but I'm exhausted. I just need someone to tell me starting over at 31 is going to be okay. — I’m just kind of aimlessly describing my situation right now. I have no clue what I’m looking for, maybe just perspective, or someone to tell me I'll be okay. My wife and I met in college. We've been…

Self isolating for 40 years. I'm more at home when I'm alone. — I have worked almost entirely alone (and at times completely alone) for the entirety of my working life and home life has been much the same. My childhood was marked by isolation and emotional negle…

I'm about to lose everything and having panic attack all day — I (24M) really need some advice. I am having the worst day of my life today. So, basically, I'm in college studying engineering. It's my fifth year. It is normally a four-year program, but I basically…

The shock of secondary dissociative disorder — I got a cPTSD diagnosis on wednesday. I’m soon to be 40, woman, chronic pain patient at the severest level with trigeminal neuralgia since 2012. I got new treatment that made the pain managable a year…

does anyone else feel like they have a way of existing and can’t go out of it? — i’m 16 and 6 years passed from my trauma, i don’t have certificates that proves exactly that i have a trauma/c-ptsd but i have all the symptoms, i am going crazy cs just now i’ve realised how many tim…

My boyfriend just abruptly did a 180 in less than a day and has become cold, cruel and heartless. I’m feeling lost and devastated. — TL;DR our relationship wasn’t perfect but things started getting way better. Literally out of no where he just switched up and has become a jerk and he goes from saying it has nothing to do with me to…

Me (F21) and my friend (F21) spent nine hours together, cuddled, and held hands, and I don't know if it's a date or not. I broke up with my ex-girlfriend (F21) a few weeks ago and we're staying friends. Can I talk to her about it? — **TLDR:** *My ex told me to date around when we broke up, but has been really clingy and possessive since then, and one of my friends want me to go no contact. But she's the person I want advice from …

needing help on what to do with a narcissistic mom who controls the situation with cps. — Hello so im 15 (F) only child. this is really more of a rant and important need for advice from adults. So basically I just have a mom, no other family member. my dad is a alcoholic who abused my mo…

how to distinguish panic attacks from emotional flashbacks? — basically title. it was a rough night for me, but i don't know if it was a panic attack or something else... i didn't feel like anything was about to happen, i felt like i was reliving some moment rn,…

Support needed. Last year at this time I had a crisis and ended up being victimised multiple times — ​ Last year between April and May I had a crisis and I started breaking away from abuse (reiterated s.abuse). When you try to break free from abuse, a lot of things can happen, but I never tho…

Are OBEs Real or Enhanced Dreams? My Latest Experience — Last night I had another supposed out-of-body experience. These episodes still leave me with so many doubts and questions. Are they dreams? Are they imagination? Are they real? I’ve had several by now…

Are OBEs Real or Enhanced Dreams? My Latest Experience — Last night I had another supposed out-of-body experience. These episodes still leave me with so many doubts and questions. Are they dreams? Are they imagination? Are they real? I’ve had several by now…

How to cheer up and recover now that my BPD husband is improving? — Trigger warning: abuse Edit: I am in individual therapy, but have been told couples therapy might not be a good idea at least for a while. I 29F and my husband 31M have been married for almost 12 ye…

I don’t know this feeling — Hello everyone I’m 31M. I’ve had anxiety I feel really since Covid era or a little bit before. Besides the pandemic I was dealing with personal things. And after many years of panic episodes, going to…

I am a high-achiever with cptsd, but I am really afraid that i will crash, anyone else like me? — I’m in my 20s and currently studying medicine in a European country. I have a prestigious full scholarship and achieved the highest possible results in my A-levels. I also draw and paint at a very hig…

I can feel my body giving out — I recently quit my job due to some fucked up shit going on there. It triggered my pre-existing traumas real bad. When I wake up, the dam opens and my mind is flooded with flashbacks and it exhausts me…

I (19F)am currently scared of my (20M) boyfriend — **TL;DR** I'd like to apologize in advance since I'm not exactly good at talking about my problems , especially since I've rarely posted on Reddit, but I feel like I'm at a loss right now and I genuin…

I feel like I'm too much for for my best friend and I don’t know if I should step back or try to fix it (31F / 29F) — I’m trying to understand if this is an attachment mismatch or if I’m just… fundamentally too heavy for people. I’m 31, she’s 29, and we’ve known each other for over 10 years. She’s not a casual frien…

My gf cheated on me after five years . — Hi, I’m Daniele, an Italian guy living in Australia. I’m 33 and my ex-partner is the same age. We were together for five years. We met five years ago, but after about six months I found some messages…

Does anyone w anxiety disorders get episodes of extreme confusion?? 😓

Does anyone w anxiety disorders get episodes of extreme confusion?? 😓

Does anyone w anxiety disorders get episodes of extreme confusion?? 😓

Meditation Session and Hollywood Video came up! (Yes the old video rental store) — I haven't been to one since I was a kid and I always loved the experience of going to theatres and rental stores and just consuming movies. I had not thought about one for a long long long time and …

Weird state inbetween sleep and wakefulness? — I’ve been getting these really weird episodes lately. Essentially, I get into bed. Then I start to get drowsy, but I then seem to switch in and out of dreaming constantly, one minute I’m dreaming bu…

How to manifest your dream job when you are depressed? — Folks! I'm deep in interviews and applications, trying to get the job of my dreams. But I am so depressed with my current situation. I hate my current job; the pay is horrible, the work is mind-numbin…

Misdiagnosis of schizophrenia. Psychopathy. — Hi everyone, this is my first post. I wanted to tell you about something that's really upsetting me, and I wanted to hear your opinions. There was an error in my schizophrenia diagnosis in 2013. Only…

I was the problem and the reason for the breakup and its destroying me — I am 23F, and my ex-boyfriend is 22M. Basically, this has been such a bad past year for me. I moved back down to be with him in our college town (it's a big city, so it wasn't weird to move back, and …

2 new episodes in the works. Stay tuned.

dumb question but did you launch 15 episodes at once in the beginning? is this the strat?

Every two weeks for nine months sounds more like a red flag to me. You need to protect yourself from these fallouts and give him a lot of space without asking questions or prodding. My partner is th…

Have you ever tried mentioning anything about attachment theory or being an FA at the beginning of dating? Or does it feel like it’s too soon and may sabotage things? For me it feels like I’d rather t…

Hi everyone, I’m in my early 20s, and recently I went through my longest relationship so far — almost 2 years — with someone who is also my age, and has BPD. I have AuDHD on top of everything. Our rel…

It's great that you are feeling better about how you'd be doing in a relationship, but to be honest it seems impossible to meaningfully answer the questions on the test if you are not currently in a l…

Wow I am sorry. I have felt similarly before and it is such a terrible thing to experience. There was a time, even, where I was paranoid that I was NPD (despite being, if anything, the complete opposi…

I also had terrible spirals where I become like an octopus clutching at him aggressively when I “feel” that he gets distant when in fact, he is just very busy. I would call him incessantly until his p…

Hi everyone. I’m a woman in my mid-30s and recently I’ve been feeling completely overwhelmed and ashamed about how dating affects my mental health. I’ve had depressive episodes before, and it feels li…

Thanks for your response, happy to hear that! > I want to learn more about that third law of disorganized attachment, and so much more. This is a bit of a joke. It refers to Newton's third law of mo…

I’m currently dating someone and, honestly, everything seems to be going well. But whenever they act slightly different from the norm or show the slightest bit of insecurity regarding upcoming plans (…

I'm female, and I can't imagine how much harder this would be for me if I also had to deal with the societal pressure not to be vulnerable that men get. I know you're being glib here but the pressure …

Posted a short summary of my book *A Stoic Resurection* ([I introduced it in another comment down below](https://www.reddit.com/r/Stoicism/comments/1obp2fx/comment/noljs2g/?utm_source=share&utm_medium…

How do you deal with anxious attachment episodes? I had a pretty bad episode on Sunday and didn't get any sleep. My anxiety about my relationship drove me to dig into her Instagram and found that she…

Sunday Stoic - Greetings, I am cohost of the “Sunday Stoic” podcast, a weekly podcast that concentrates on applying Stoicism to modern life.  Our most recent episode examines the Cardinal Virtue of Ju…

The other thread is locked, but /u/greenline_chi if you like podcasts, you’ll love this one called “In Bed With The Right” They have a couple episodes about Christian nationalism, religion generally,…

Ugh, I’m sorry! IMHO since Halloween is a long time to figure out whether you have feelings… Be kind to yourself for a few days! I call it babying yourself, but strict instructions are to eat all th…

Random telenovela shower thoughts: Over the past couple of weeks I have been catching up on my fave telenovela, La Reina del Flow. And what I have been noodling on is the male characters and how they…

🫡 I have turned on the preheat! I'm a few episodes into season 1, I think I've seen the whole series through before but it's been a while. New tattoo is a snake! I'll have a few more sessions, it's…

Enjoy your pizza and pets! I’m glad you’re looking after yourself despite feeling understandably sad on this day. I also tell myself I hate the commercialism of the day (and I do!) but I’d like to hat…

Thanks! I hadn't heard of that but it sounds like a great think to try. Any episodes you'd recommend in particular?

Start with season 2. Each season follows 3 or 4 couples through their process of understanding and beginning to deal with their issues. They grapple with a variety of tough issues and come out better …

Thank you, I'm starting therapy today which its great :) I told him, he is not happy about it and is triggered too but we're gonna try. I don't know what my trigger is, but I usually panic before meet…

My guess would be that this is pretty common on this sub, since ignoring or outright denying your kids' feelings and experiences seems to be the number one thing emotionally immature and neglectful pa…

Bingo. We are an insane species, and in situations like this, nothing would surprise me. My uncle is bipolar... But before they knew, he was apparently going manic and saying WILD stuff to his wife.…

Here’s a plan. Prepare your room with black out curtains. The same day, before sleeping, close them so that the following day the Sun does not incentivize your body to wake up. I’ve found that my inte…

How long have you guys been together, and how do these depressive episodes usually go? Regardless, I find it unacceptable to not communicate with your partner for days without any sort of heads up.

A guy I had been seeing for 2 months I dumped after this huge very aggressive male Rottweiler was on the loose and he tried to use me as a shield to hide behind when I was early 20s - it was especiall…

Never cared for Buffy, but Angel is something totally different. I find that My Little Ponies: Friendship is Magic helps when it is bad. But I love my cop shows from Law and Order to Criminal Minds. I…

(52M) I have lost so many years of my life due to my Dad's constant anger outbursts to me throughout my childhood,and being an outcast for most of my school years.I didn't self diagnosis myself as bei…

For sure, I watch Family Guy, Naruto and Hunter x Hunter (not the entire series of course but just a few episodes to decompress).

He felt I refused to acknowledge alternate opinions on diagnosis, said that if I chose to die rather than admit that I was wrong that it was narcissistic based on ego. My feelings come from trauma and…

Was it about a person doing or talking about being on acid or was it just really trippy? Can you remember anything more about it? Was it short or longer? It was definitely stop motion? It’s probably…

My mother would put pieces of soap in my anus because she always said I was constipated and this would help….. She also use to examine my genitals regularly(can’t remember her reasons) and tried to ke…

12th house is, because 12 house represents long-term health conditions. Mental health is a lifelong experience. Sixth house can represent flares or manic depressive episodes that are very very slim, b…

Omg YES! I didn’t think about how it’s related but that makes so much sense. Never any hobbies and barely any interests, just scrolling on her phone. My nex had mania and psychotic episodes and would…

My family member was in a similar situation and multiple psychiatrists would not diagnose them with one specific thing because the lines blurred too much between bipolar mania and schizophrenia. They …

Yes I dated a guy around this age and he developed schizoaffective disorder while we were dating, went from fine to very similar to OP’s post and having psychosis episodes. He got very scary toward me…

Barrrrfffff. The religion angle? Ew. Implying you should be ‘doing’ something? Ew. Implying you’re not a man for holding boundaries and keeping your peace? Ew. He FAFO. It’s too bad you didn’t call t…

What is most concerning is when he said to that he would behead you!!!! Maybe u are only 22 so u have no idea how dangerous these psychotic episodes can be and most are triggered when he stops taking…

The fact that he's verbally interacting with his intrusive thoughts *is* scary. Don't stick around to be polite or "supportive", insist on information, insist of knowing his diagnosis **and** how he…

The fact that you're asking this instead of justifying it says a lot. Most people don't get to this question until after real damage is done. One thing that shifted things for me: anger in relation…

Yessss nothing feels better when your friend takes your side with things like I always rant to my friends about the way my dad is and they usually don’t really know what to say until they meet my dad …

Since I received a diagnosis I absolutely do not agree with after I lost my marriage, a diagnosis I cannot get rid of and is life threatening because it causes doctors to doubt my physical ailments, a…

Very interesting! Sometimes, I feel like I can't visualize when I'm trying to follow a guided meditation or something, but then I remember how often I think in "movies" and I know I can visualize perf…

I wrote a fantasy novel that dramatizes Epictetus' concept of prohairesis — then wrote the academic thesis proving it I wrote a novel set in classical Sparta where a seven-year-old boy in the agoge m…

egosyntonic aggessive rage episodes, cluster B, unstable personality architecture (shifting states), Diogenes syndrome, severe hoarding disorder, depression Other: NPD, sadism, trauma, attachment dis…

Mine has depression and anxiety, but also narcissistic traits, definitely ptsd from my father and I suspect some form of autism or bipolar disorder as she had meltdown type of episodes as well…

I've been tracing my family tree a bit and have definitely noticed the "family quirks" were more likely undiagnosed ocd and autism than hobbies and star-crossed affairs with doctors. I have kept tell…

Is the coca leaf actually addictive? Ethnopharmacologist Dennis McKenna explains the chemistry behind coca leaves and why traditional coca use in the Andes is very different from cocaine. According …