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I am trapped in a cycle of trauma, fawning, and complete emotional dependency: How do I survive when my past won't let me breathe? — **TL;DR:** I survived a horrific childhood witnessing my mother’s repeated sexual assault and suffered years of severe bullying. Today, I’m struggling with AuDHD, Bipolar, BPD, and what I suspect is s…

how to apply skills from therapy and date like a sane person? — tl;dr how to keep a connection going with a secure potential love interest who likes to be alone when you’re anxious-preoccupied af 😭 i’m a lifelong anxious-preoccupied and through years of Doing Th…

Movie List: Chinese movies where the antagonist(s) are racist/imperialist White/Westerners and get their asses kicked — I thought I would make a list of some Chinese movies(mostly martial art action films) where the main antagonist is a racist and/or imperialist white. These movies are all fun and feel good, and while …

Dream people are nice! — I'm so tired of hearing "dont tell them they are a dream". Assuming dream people would be zombies turning on you the second they "find out" is how you get nightmares. Dream people are living in your d…

WTF happened — Hello Reddit, I think I just need to get this off my chest. Because I don't get it. Today I shook my head while walking home, because I realised that I never actually took a chance in my life and I …

Anyone else feel like their brain is kinda fried — I'm a lot better than I used to be. I've been in therapy for the majority of a decade. I've been on meds just as long. I did the work. I read the books. I started meditating. I left my toxic relations…

I have tried almost everything — PSA- I’m not good at reddit so please tell me if i did this wrong I am 21, and I have had major depression and chronic suicidal thoughts and ideations since i was ten years old. I have made several a…

I have this question all the time, and would someone, PLEASE answer it?! Why my body isn't there whenever i astral project? And why I can see in the dark, although my room is pitch black darkness? — I didn't planned to astral project, just awake up to do something else entirely, because for some unknown reasons when I tried to astral project multiple times in the past 2 years, I usually end up…

I feel like I can't interract with others at all — I just feel like a zombie in most of my conversations. It's like I already know what the person is going to say and I never get surprised. Why does it happen? Am I just internalising some belief about…

I was mass-deleting apps from my phone every week. So I built something different instead. — I'm going to be honest with you. I tried everything. Screen Time limits - I'd just tap "Ignore." Deleting apps - I'd reinstall them within hours. Grayscale mode - lasted two days. Digital detox apps…

This disorder is shit but the worst thing is that it was caused by the most repulsive POS to breathe.. not letting me add more than one flair so this is a vent/rant — I'm diagnosed and everything but hesitant to try any medication/proper therapy. I'm scared constantly and it's been manifesting as hallucinations and constant paranoia. I'm starting to think i need to…

Bad astral projection experience — Years ago as a teen I was really interested in AP and listened to binaural beats and frequencies etc while falling asleep. First time I successfully projected, I was flying around my bedroom. I could …

My first real psychiatric visit/evaluation — Hello all! So I began going to therapy in august of 2023, I wasn’t really honest with my therapist in the past as well as the first psychiatrist I spoke to. I was vague and really just wanted a reason…

How do i move on? — Hey guys, i have a slight dilemma. Let me just say my entire story. When I was 17 i was w my partner for almost 5 years. I love him but it became toxic, he cheated and what not. I fully trusted him he…

I believe dual n-back could be an effective tool for lucid dreamers — **Edit:** Dual n-back is a brain training game popularized by Susanene Jaeggi in [her 2008 study](https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/18443283/). Here is a link to the free open source version of dual n-b…

am I difficult or is everyone terrible? Therapy, trauma and trusting — The way people talk about therapy and therpists feel so different to my reality that I feel silly, like I can't trust myself, like i'm overreacting... Is this overreacting? Am I giving up too easily? …

Different dream (to me) — Okay some background. I’ve been able to lucid dream since I was a child . The past 5 years I’ve been really challenging myself with it like taking control, going back and fourth between dream worlds ,…

Gods wink and Cosmic Joke on heroic dose — This was probably close to the 20th time i’ve done shrooms, mostly 3.5 grams a few heroic doses. This time i had bought a chocolate bar from a friend, asked them the dosage to which they replied they …

I feel so empty despite my achievements. Help… — I’m 32(F). Have achieved all my goals and live a relatively good life. I have a house, car and business. I look good and live a healthy lifestyle. But I just feel so empty… No matter what I do, I ju…

My experience with Ambien — So I got a prescription for Ambien to help me sleep now at the time I was regularly smoking weed and had used LSD, ket and coke as well now after 1-2 nights of taking 1 pill for sleep along with my ni…

What team am I playing on — So back in my early 20s I'd been using ambien to trip and as a substitute for Xanax whenever I couldn't get a hold of any benzos. This was in the early days of popping different pills but ambien was m…

Considering seeking out help. Had poor experiences in the past. Minimal resources in my area. Any tips? — I've experienced low level depression for most of my life. I'm in my 30s now. I tried the medication roller coaster in my teens/early 20s and it just felt like I turned into a soulless zombie. It made…

I am trapped in a cycle of trauma, fawning, and complete emotional dependency: How do I survive when my past won't let me breathe? — **TL;DR:** I survived a horrific childhood witnessing my mother’s repeated sexual assault and suffered years of severe bullying. Today, I’m struggling with AuDHD, Bipolar, BPD, and what I suspect is s…

Lucid dreaming to manage nightmares? — I wonder if anyone here can help me with this. I've had constant nightmares for years, they make have an awful time throughout the night and no amount of therapy has helped to make them go away. Whil…

22 years old and trying to become better this year. — At the beginning of this year, I realised how much I’ve wasted my life and that I need to make changes. I’ve struggled with bad suicidal thoughts since I was 13. Attempted when I was 17. Started taki…

Sleep and coping with nights. — Night time is the worst. I lay awake for hours with thoughts chasing each other through my head. Can’t stop going over everything. If I don’t take sleeping tablets I don’t sleep. If I do take sleeping…

I remember experiencing emotional blunting with SSRIs, and my doctor told me, “while it takes away those bad feelings, it can also take away good” 😔 When I stopped because I felt like a zombie, I rem…

The man I'm dating suddenly fell off the Earth. He's never a big texter, he can really be present without checking his phone (which I sorta admire, I compulsively check my phone), so it's not that wei…

My girlfriend's had fluctuating eczema for the first time in her life since maybe September, had kidney issues in December, and has alternated between colds/flu/coughs since the new year. The eczema…

I unfortunately do not seem to get to the date stage. Lots of pen pals, ghosts, and zombies. I very much agree about the bio. I do wonder how much effort potential matches in my area put into reading …

My husband is not into dress up at all but if I were to dress up as a princess for something I would 100% be the prettiest princess to him because he loves me. And I know because I have dressed up and…

I was prescribed Hydroxyzine for my panic attacks, however recently I have been having a hard time sleeping with my anxiety. I was prescribed 50mg, and I took it once, and felt like a zombie for 2 day…

There's a famous quote from the Tantric master Tilopa to his disciple Naropa: "Your thoughts are not the problem. Your attachment to them is the problem." People often think they need to eliminate de…

This is exactly why I compare them to zombies because they have an endless appetite for brains and never get satisfied. I literally asked my mom if she would be satisfied if I became president and sh…

No. I got sick on the day of surgery and had to delay it for a month. Surgery was successful but I developed complications and ended up staying in the ICU for six months on a ventilator learning to …

I’m frustrated by the grind, and when I’ve had something going on, I’m frustrated that the difference in expectations meant it was just a fling. But “bad time?” No, I don’t think so. I get dates, and…

I dunno man. I see where you are coming from, but it's a bit of a reach. I've been playing video games and Capcom games since the early 1990s and Capcom has other games with different representation. …

My husband is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He's so kind and loving and an absolute goof ball. We both started getting serious when both of our lives felt like they were falling apart, …

When RE5 came out, western liberals immediately got on them about killing Africans, and they folded faster than a broke-ass lawn chair. They immediately included non Blacks in these rural African vil…

Any personal experience is anecdotal, but Ritalin made me feel like I was dissociating and a little like a depressed zombie. Personally Vyvanse worked quite well, so no harm giving it a shot

For me, it’s those with Neptune and Pluto combos on Venus or mars. The illusion clouds their judgement and their Pluto causes the hyper fixations. BUT something I also noticed is mercury in someone’…

He will think that you still care and you are attached. They are fed by such things. He won't even read or process any words you are saying. They are like zombies after break up

Figuring out what happened is really hard. I read a book by chance. As I read through the 25 common traits of kids who were neglect (pretty much 10 out of 10 on 21 of 25), it all made sense. It was l…

That it would just simply be the end of everything. There’s no real, actual life worth having post divorced. It’s a death sentence. Now I work, take care of the kids, force myself to do stuff that a …

I like that more than “zombie”!

Neither parent had time to spend on me unless it was yelling: else they just focused in on themselves and their own bs issues. Honestly grew up wishing they would have just went through with all thei…

Disappearing for three weeks is ghosting. Reappearing after three weeks is zombieing. You think it’s dead but it’s squirming around and trying to get into your brain.

Now there is zombieing? That is awful.

My mom would actually get me diagnosed for things I didn't even have. The psychiatrists would just agree on the first visit and medicate me, id say what she told me to say because I thought she knew m…

What were his initials? What city? Anyhow yes I experienced this. Was seeing someone for 5 months long distance - once a month for several days overnight: for a total of about 27 nights at that point.…

Same. I'm looking forward to the zombie apocalypse days. I'm not really a Doomsday prepper per se but I have a lot of cool camping and survival gear that's going to be awesome to finally use. Have n…

Thats Horrible but accurate. I would not diagnose anyone borderline unless 100 per cent sure. thats an awful condition. so sorry! I went through similar. talked to a psychiatrist in Miami and he state…

I like this. I tend to get absorbed in my phone and go zombie mode. It's very addictive. I feel like I should spend more time doing this:  > I've been on a mental diet for the last month. Practicing…

It really does feel like a nightmare. It makes me wish I had never met him because I’ve never felt that strongly about anyone.. not even my husband which made me feel weird because I didn’t even know …

Ok, wow. And for one you are/were close to. It's hard isn't it? Even when I was a true believer, it wasn't until I had contact that I converted the belief into a known. And that is a huge difference. …

No, lucid dreaming is not a good way to escape reality and it doesn't work like that. You could become aware that you're dreaming in some very distressing dreams. It also takes time to learn how to …

We definitely have different ideas of escaping reality lol. The zombie one was actually a lot of fun though. The point of my comment is more so that lucid dreaming is exhausting and you don't actuall…

Ive been happy alone and im 32. Its a hard thing to accept that I might be alone forever. Dont have a bunch of friends to hang with as im normally introverted. It honestly feels like an apocalypse hap…

6 years of CBT. Results? Passivity in realtionships, locked down at home, fear, loose of all my creativity. There Is a big problem? See a psychiatrist. So meds and meds. And I was an artist. Fucking t…

My superficial answer is really going to depend on how much spare funds you have. High amount. If you’re aiming for societal standards of beauty atm aka skinny. Easy way is through a glp 1 with a com…

>It was her. She took my hopes, my ideals. They're dead now and their remains are rotting inside my body as I push it through survival for no reason other than inertia. I am sorry you feel this way b…

I lost 40lbs, only had 15 that needed to go, in a 6w - I was eating (not as much) while packing on muscle with “rage curls”, “hate pushups”, “anger jogs”, occasional “anger bang” and “zombie walks”. …

Two things. First, antidepressants can cause you to become a zombie. They can make you not have any emotional range. You should probably have your medication adjusted because it sounds like your dose …

I have been and I am. High functioning. I used it as a crutch and an excuse for a few months but it’s not an excuse. Before my meds I was really a zombie. I would wake up late, rush to work, come hom…

Thank you for this answer. The last time I tried anti depressant meds I was a zombie all day, couldn’t cum worth shit, and when I threw them in the trash I wound up in the hospital with seizures from …

All those resources above look great. For me, reading *Courage to be disliked* by Fumitake Koga and Ichiro Kishimi helped me see the vertical relationships(hierarchical-based) that I was letting cont…

This one ☝️. I had to make the decision of no more horror games/zombie games after that. Too intense. Too anxiety inducing!! This was such a hard game to get through because of how scared/anxious I wa…

Green Hell is pretty fun but I'm not good at it and hate it when the humanoid enemies come lol. (I haven't figured out yet if they're zombies or not but something fucky about a disease is going on.)

I've avoided a lot of the FPS games like gears of war, far cry, COD, any zombie game, where the only gimmick is the violence.

Interesting story. Yep, I think they do use some sort of type of consciousness illusions like that. I've had a nightmare before where 3 zombies were coming to attack me. As they got closer, I somehow…

i shall call them back "living zombies"

It doesn’t respond to your thought it responds to your fear/feeling. You see it **because** you are afraid. I’ve seen hundreds of shadow beings and they would often chase me and try to latch on to me.…

I just want to say as someone who had an extremely stressful and thankless job with terrible hours when I first started my career you do become a zombie. By month 6 of my job I couldn’t even speak to …

With self-help books, you can get access to the best in therapy without the gatekeeping of cost and availability. It is a good place to start, though I think right now, everybody is just buying time…

For me when someone tries to talk to me in the morning it feels like too much of everything. It’s almost like sensory overload and my brain can’t quite catch up yet. I remember while growing up and t…

Is this just your perception and internal thoughts or is he actually angry? It kind of reads like you’re just anxious and would like reassurance at a time when it’s not natural for him to give it. Are…