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I used to do this and think of myself as "wrong" and "out of control." More specifically the feelings would come when i was really drunk/high and if something in my life was going wrong. IT was almost…
I (F18) am jealous of my boyfriend (M18) for the gpt chat — I know it sounds strange, but I can’t do it anymore. At first my boyfriend started using chat for normal things, such as workout plans, food advice etc. at some point, he started sharing his appearanc…
I’m 19 and left with a 4yo autistic sister. I feel extremely hopeless. — I’m 19f, my mom passed away November 2025 and Im left with a 5year old neurotypical sister and 4 year old sister diagnosed with autism, ocd, and adhd. My sisters and I have different fathers, their fa…
800-1000ug+ FIRST acid trip complete ego loss most terrifying thing ive ever had — Before I get into this, I want to make something clear right away. I am not encouraging anyone to do this, and I am definitely not presenting this as some cool or impressive story. This was not enjoya…
From when I was younger, my mother ruined my life and turned my into an ungrateful bastard. — ​ the peak of everything is my mother, where she has always been the one trying to hold everything together, (and didnt accomplish. So, its all her fault.) She works at a shoe store. From whe…
Dealing with the repercussions of making mistakes — Posting this here because the BPD subreddit kinda sucks and will not allow you to post anything :)) Hey guys :// I was doing pretty good but I’m definitely still feeling repercussions of when I was …
From when I was younger, my mother ruined my life and turned my into an ungrateful bastard. — ​ the peak of everything is my mother, where she has always been the one trying to hold everything together, (and didnt accomplish. So, its all her fault.) She works at a shoe store. From whe…
From when I was younger, my mother ruined my life and turned me into an ungrateful bastard. — ​ the peak of everything is my mother, where she has always been the one trying to hold everything together, (and didnt accomplish. So, its all her fault.) From when I was really small, she’d…
intimacy and being seen by boys makes me feel unsafe, ashamed, and out of control. Alcohol feels like the only way I can access connection, but it also leaves me feeling disgusted with myself afterwards. — I have a complicated relationship with boys and intimacy. I crave connection, attention, being desired, and feeling close to someone, but at the same time it makes me feel physically unsafe. Even the …
SSDI hearing tomorrow and I am really anxious — I’ve been in this process to get on disability here in the States for the past two years. And tomorrow is the big day that decides everything. My lawyer is fairly confident in the case, she says my su…
What helped your breakup stay amicable? (30F) and (32F) Likely ending things. — Someone advised that I should repost this in r/divorce because although I'm not married, I'm ending a long term relationship with entangled lives. I, 30F am moving towards ending things with my part…
i screamed back at my dad tonight — i screamed back tonight. (warning tl;dr) (i’m 22, i live at home. i’m chronically ill and on SSI while i rehabilitate my physical health. my mom and dad live with me. my parents are divorced but frie…
i screamed back at my dad tonight — i screamed back tonight. (warning tl;dr) (i’m 22, i live at home. i’m chronically ill and on SSI while i rehabilitate my physical health. my mom and dad live with me. my parents are divorced but frie…
From when I was younger, my mother ruined my life and turned me into an ungrateful bastard. — ​ the peak of everything is my mother, where she has always been the one trying to hold everything together, (and didnt accomplish. So, its all her fault.) From when I was really small, she’d…
My mother died and I'm finally free, I'm just scared I'm too old — I'm kind of nervous to say this because I can't help feel like an imposter here, my mother wasn't all that abusive after all, but now she's dead I can't help but feel like she caused me a lot of harm.…
Is my friend a fake? — I've been doing ecom for 6 months, learning the space and building a brand. After 6 months of no results or ROI, I've finally started to make money, and I'm potentially on the verge of making a lot mo…
Message me if you're struggling or feeling out of control. I've been there and it's tough doing it alone. I too was reaching out to whoever, Reddit, friends, weekly posts, dating apps, etc. I could no…
Thank you. Our relationship was closer to family than romantic. We're both hapily married & I'm a good deal older than her. This is all very new to me, know I have these feelings, that these attac…
Hi everyone, im going a through a rough patch right now and feel like im spiraling out of control. I went on this supposedly amazing first date with a girl I met on hinge and I felt like we really hit…
I relate to what you’re saying. I’ve spent most of this last year alone and it’s been very difficult but honestly, I had no other choice. For me, it was a matter of “I can’t force people to be in my l…
This might genuinely be terrible advice, so please take it with a grain of salt, but here is a process that has been helping me when my anxiety flares up like that. This might be long, forgive me (ADH…
I need to know who the fuck normalized diagnosing people with a fear of intimacy or commitment just because they don't want to text or see you as often as you want to see them. I get it's softer on ou…
Check your diet / supplements. Taking lots of stimulants or ashwagandha? Caffeine destabilizes sexual energy and can make you feel like you are out of control. I'd wager its that. Ashwagandha side…
Yep, I used to be 'out of control' on caffeine as well, particularly in my 20s. I'd crave constant content online and my energies would be spiking out of control. The grand experiment is to cut it o…
Yep. After a discard where the truth was revealed and monkey branching occurred along with financial manipulation. I went to therapy. I’m lucky that I have a good group of people around me who are gen…
Goodness, thank you. This post and the comments are a mess. OP is clearly a huge part of the problem here. An emotionally healthy person would not have shown up at that restaurant. An emotionally heal…
That's rough. I understand how you feel. I questioned EVERYTHING about what happened. I ended up balls deep in the Talmud and Tibetan texts that mentioned Tulpa specifically. I'm a little....stubborn …
This is spot on! I’ve been abused by both men and women and this is very true. After I was abused at 13 by a man, there was a female that I knew that would mock me and laugh at me. I used to think t…
Your mom is bat shit crazy. You’re in college. Getting 150-200 phone calls in one night because your mom convinced an entire town you are missing is completely out of control.
Big Alcohol. It's too big for government to control. It is well funded, with deep pockets, popular amongst consumers (voters) and yet is absolutely lethal. Big alcohol is more than a drug manufacture …
Advice point number one is to review your finances periodically for yourself, not her. Advice point two is you'll know she's full of shit if you can provide graphical evidence, without specifics, tha…
I spent years thinking trauma was kind of normal. I never thought to question it and only when I collapsed did it finally get revealed to me. Sometimes self denial is strong until we are forced to op…
A couple weeks ago in the middle of a work day I got a call about someone's dentist unexpectedly dying. Like...not a lifelong dentist. Not a family friend. A dentist they've seen for a few years. They…
Your mind is moving at a relentless speed, while your attention lags far behind. It creates the illusion that you’re empty, but the truth is the opposite: you’re overwhelmed with thoughts. So many, in…
OP, your wife is out of control. This is absolutely unacceptable. What if one of her friends decides to try swinging? Is your wife going to go to a swingers club with her, for support? I suggest you…
I get it! I’m in same boat. Just always under stress. Feels like my body is constantly being electrocuted. My doctor increased my meds few months ago and that’s when my anxiety got out of control. I’m…
Brother, first: do not go see her again right now, and do not go anywhere near her husband while you’re carrying this much pain. This sounds way bigger than jealousy. It sounds like injury, grief, old…
Love doesn't make up for bad treatment. If people avoiding his company is a pattern and he's aware enough to pick up on it, then again it's a choice he's making. He doesn't get to DARVO his way out …
We are all volunteers. There are no mechanisms in place that can force a soul to come here. Prior to NDE, I felt like that too. Hopeless, confused, in despair. When I died, I saw my first birth, my fi…
i relate to this so mcuh....may i ask what one must do if they've been given a job opportunity but don't know how to go about it with their narc parent? i've been avoiding bringing it up bc i know if …
I’m gonna be honest with you — this is the part nobody talks about when it comes to “manifesting.” When things feel like they’re falling apart, it’s usually not failure… it’s a sign that what you wer…
A lot of people on reddit are chronically online. A lot of chronically people are addicted to porn. When people are addicts, if you do anything that might question that behavior, they flail out of con…
Oh my god - I need to find a house keeper. It’s too much. My career and a baby…the condo is out of control. I’m so overwhelmed
My best friend says same!!! My lifestyle is not sustainable. My son is 8 months I watch him and work and my home is out of control. And yes - I need a top to bottom clean and help with additional pro…
Yeah, I’ve been through a stretch like that, where everything kind of collapses at once and you don’t even recognize your own routine anymore. What stood out to me is the “no structure” part. That’s …
She was mad about me when we dated. Then she started asking who I dated and that's when things got out of control.
Denver girl chiming in and it’s out of control. I’m honestly only dating ENM guys right now and focusing on my mental health because I’m finding so many cishet single guys in Denver are not in alignme…
I acted out this way as well. I slept with any man who wanted me, regardless of how I felt about him. It was ingrained that I couldn't say no because my body only existed for men to use. This started …
Hey R it's me for real babe it's J ..really it's me babe I found you all these years later and I have so much to say I have been replying to post hoping you see them .you use so many different account…
Ok, so im not a gal, so i cant give you THAT perspective.. im a late 30s divorced guy. You are in a difficult place man. I know quite a few men, and as many women actually, who have faced very simil…
i know everyone says this but we’ve been through a lot, we have shared trauma. it was not the reason we began dating but a reason the relationship was so strong for a while. him being addicted to his …
This is some pretty extreme abuse, it makes a lot of sense that you would find it hard to be kind to yourself after growing up in that environment, especially since you’re having to continue to live i…
I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. It sounds exactly like something my parents would do. The reasoning is because they try to do things to sabotage or harm their victims. You mother is under the…
I know. That was the first of many lies/betrayal. I should have ended things then, at just 4 months of dating, hadn't even told him " I love you" yet. I don't know why I thought I could trust him w…
just gonna come here and say that whatever "info" or videos you watched telling you NOT to do certain things like killing people or telling dream characters that you're dreaming are BS and there are N…
Me too my friend, sometimes it’s unavoidable and I’ve also found myself in the same position quite a few times spiraling out of control. Certain moments I wish it could just go back in time to before …
Not sure about fake accounts but the filters are out of control. Like, ladies, when your neck wrinkles don’t match that 18yr old complexion you’re rockin in your 40s…
As I said, the conversation was intended to be a START to letting ourselves be really seen. A very reasonable thing to say “let’s start pulling back the curtain a bit” a couple months into dating imo.…