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N-N DMT has a physical feeling you'll never experience with any other drug and I want expecting that. It's like your body is dissolving into the air. Very relaxing. It's more dissociating than anythin…
How honest are securely attached people? — I'm curious how honest secure people are with others in their life. I'm healing from dismissive avoidant attachment and my instinct whenever something bothers or upsets me is to dismiss it as not a bi…
My father is sabotaging my career and medical treatments through "smear campaigns" and monitoring. I feel like I'm living in a Truman Show nightmare. — I (25F) am an Indian doctor currently preparing for NEET PG, and I am living with a family led by a malignant narcissistic father. My mother and brother are complete enablers. I’m writing this becaus…
Want to hurt a covert narcissist? Tell people the truth (but be smart about it) — **DISCLAIMER:** Only do this if you are physically, financially, emotionally, and psychologically separated and safe from a narcissist. The following will probably not be applicable if you have to mai…
My experience with NHI's, contact and navigating society. — # Hello! Where do i begin? Firstly, i want to give thanks to this space cultivated by Oak and the other Moderators, without this space, people such as us/me do not really have anywhere to go with a…
Manifestation technique that I came up with that helped me sm!! — I made a post on here a couple week ago about how I manifested full health and I realized that I left out a very important technique that I thought about and experimented with. I previously couldn’t m…
Sometimes they’re so cartoonishly evil you have to laugh — i visited my older brother yesterday. We have a bit of an age gap, so we aren’t totally privy to each others childhood. He asked me if i remembered a “song” that Mum used to sing about her dying. I st…
How I learned that a lot of women/girls are scared of men — I was sheltered by my parent in my teenage years. The first time I really heard about women/girls being scared of men, was at a mental health facility. All of the girls there were talking about how th…
Creaking and Cracking — # Do you get unusual noises in your vicinity during experiences? **Such as: Creaking, cracking, popping, thudding, snapping, etc.** **These noises occur in synchronistic-timing** with my thoughts an…
New to CE5s Should I be concerned? — Hi everyone. I’m new to the CE5 community, though I’ve seen orbs throughout my life. For years, I’ve followed Dr. Steven Greer’s work, believing that advanced intelligence must be peaceful or they wou…
Heroic Dose Trip Report — Took 6 g of PE yesterday and had one of the most profound experiences of my life. I used Orange Tek method. Now, onto the trip! Zero nausea on the come up and the come up itself was very fast. It wa…
Has anyone looked into what chronic depression and trauma actually do to your body at a cellular level? The research is both terrifying and oddly empowering. — I've been down the research rabbit hole on this and wanted to share because it validates something many of us feel intuitively. Chronic depression and prolonged trauma responses don't just affect you…
How I broke free from panic attacks — For 3 years ago I was at the gym. I was doing my normal push routine while all of the sudden I felt immense pain in my chest. I laid the weights beside me and sat down, my heart was pumping, it was pu…
Divorce is Finalized BUT… WTF is wrong with me? — I’m 56 years old. My divorce was finalized in January. My wife was given three months by the mediator to move out of our home. I should say my home since I bought it and paid it off before we were mar…
Narcissistic collapse is terrifying — TW for suicide. I fully believed he would realise he needed to change when he was forced to hold a mirror up to himself. That the man I love would see that the way he was treating me was wrong and he …
Does anyone else get these crazy "vibrations" or is it just me? Need to vent — Yo everyone, i rly need to share this because whenever i try to tell someone they either think im capping or jst give me that blank oh really? look its frustrating as heck. so here’s the deal i usual…
Feel terrible for initiating NC — On an alt account for this. I was broken up with about a month and a half ago or so. 3 years together and it was a relatively amicable breakup, I wont go into details because the entire situation was …
I can't stop APing on accident and want to stop — Around 6-8 months ago, I was really into the idea of astral projecting. I tried for months with meditations and sounds, but nothing came of it. A few weeks after I stopped trying, I APed and had one o…
the veil dropped — So, I am in a new layer of integrating my dimi break through (3 months ago), and the experiences and lessons (hell) I had are revealing themselves to me in new ways, expansive ways, however there is e…
I have bare mummy issues from being raised by a boy mum — My dad is genuinely just a terrible person. A far far worse parent than my mum, but I think because of this my brain didn't even register him as a parent, just an abusive man that lived in my house. I…
I helped a woman through an abusive marriage, then she chose another guy days later — I’ve been struggling to process a situation that ended about a month ago, and I just need to get this off my chest. For about 18 months, I (32/M) was really close with this woman 32(F). We never met …
Frequent Nightmares When Attempting to Shift — Ive been trying to shift on and off for the past 4 or 5 years. Though, it isnt until recently when I got back into shifting did I start expirencing vivid nightmares. Usually whenever I would try to sh…
Is this claim about psychedelics and psychosis accurate? (From How to Change Your Mind) — Hi all, I’m reading *How to Change Your Mind* by Michael Pollan and came across this line early in the book: “It is true that the terrifying experiences some people have on psychedelics can risk flip…
800-1000ug+ FIRST acid trip complete ego loss most terrifying thing ive ever had — Before I get into this, I want to make something clear right away. I am not encouraging anyone to do this, and I am definitely not presenting this as some cool or impressive story. This was not enjoya…
Greys, an Ophanim, other beings, new personal knowledge, and an OBE — ​ I've long had interest in the phenomenon and seen a few UFOs. In late 2021 I started projecting intent for my own personal contact and proof, then in early 2022 I got my answer, and it was t…
My story of confusion - need advice — In early 2024, I met a woman from another country, and we embarked on a long-distance relationship that initially felt like a rare, once-in-a-lifetime connection. For the first two months, we were in …
My NDE — No one I have talked to about this understands so I hope people here do. A couple years back when I was severely mentally ill and getting out of an extremely abusive relationship, I got into some tro…
My 23M bf gets a panic attack every time i ask him to pick up after himself 22F am i the problem? — I’ve been living with my bf 23M for almost a year now. I’ve noticed that every time i slightly disagree with him or ask him to not leave food out all night he gets upset to the point that he gets a pa…
Not everyone is able to leave a wayward — Just want to shout out to those who’ve been betrayed and can’t leave. I see so many judgmental comments where people share stories and are trying to reconcile because for one reason or another, they…
My mom reported my partner who is a medical professional of sexual misconduct — Trauma dump incoming lol. Trigger warning for sexual assault. My mom reported my partner who is a medical professional of sexual misconduct claiming I was her patient. Now that I have had some space…
My Nmom claims her "therapist" told her to stop giving me love, since it was "enabling" me to "abuse" her. (I think her "therapist" is an AI.) — I haven't visited my mom in private in almost five years. I have seen her at a couple of necessary public outings. The reason being... she effectively held me captive for three years in my 20s. *That'…
18 months NC Adventure Time. — Just days after my 50th birthday, that of which was celebrated alone, in a holding cell. I had Frosted Flakes and a strawberry go-gurt for breakfast at 5a.m. And a lovely bologna sandwich with a s…
Predator or Stupidity? — \* trigger warning \* \*for adults \* sensitive topic I feel conflicted about something...and I wonder what others think... I went on a date with someone. it was pre-disclosed we were looking for…
I keep getting stuck in lucid nightmares — For the last few nights I have been getting stuck I these terrifying lucid dreams. I had never lucid dreamt before this but now that I have they have all been terrifying. I feel stuck when I’m in them…
they told me being a 30yo single mom would be my "end," but I’m realizing it’s actually my beginning. — After months of checking out mentally (like I mentioned in my last post), i’ve finally stopped asking who will choose me and started asking "Who is worthy of me it’s terrifying starting over with two …
Tip on how you can report your abuse when you have "easily triggered" parents which makes it difficult to tell secrets to parents? — How to tell someone about abuse safely if you have social anxiety If you have social anxiety, selective mutism, or just find talking about serious stuff terrifying, here’s a step-by-step way to tell …
Considering Divorce — like the title says I'm considering separating from my husband, I'm 25 and he's 28, we've been married 2 years and together 4. He hasn't worked in 3 and 1/2 years and he refuses to get a job. He says …
My boyfriend just abruptly did a 180 in less than a day and has become cold, cruel and heartless. I’m feeling lost and devastated. — TL;DR our relationship wasn’t perfect but things started getting way better. Literally out of no where he just switched up and has become a jerk and he goes from saying it has nothing to do with me to…
i (22 f) am in love with my friend (22f) and i'm not sure how to approach it? — i've been friends with this girl since the beginning of the school year. after about two months i realized i was developing feelings after we went out with a new group and somebody thought we were dat…
I think im starting to get back on track. I still feel lost but I wanted to post to aknowledge the progress ive made — I went through a big breakup and then I started talking to this girl and then she said she needed space and I just had such a hard time with that. I have some bad mood regulation issues but im treated…
Has anyone here done 5/10/20/30 days of rejection therapy? What changed? — I've been avoiding cold outreach for months because of fear of rejection. Read about Jia Jiang's rejection therapy and thinking about trying it — intentionally seeking out "no" every day for 30 days (…
My dad stripped me naked for wetting the bed — idk if this is the right place for this but a lot happened to me as a kid. my father was....mean to say the least. I'm m23 and I can't bring myself to list the things done to me even in a space like t…
I think my mother has NPD — Hi everyone. I’m really looking for someone to talk to who grew up in a destructive home. I’m a woman in my late 20s, but I feel like I’m stuck in childhood. I’ve only just started to realize how tru…
I let my marriage shatter my entire sense of self worth. — TW: Physical domestic abuse I’m not sure why I’m writing this here. I’ve never posted anything like this, I’ve always just been a lurker. Maybe I want to know if I’m not alone maybe I just need a pla…
I have been scared to sleep for 3 days because of this experience (Viberational state, but not how everybody discribes it) HELP — Hi everyone, I have been interested in shifting for a while, I knew that astral projection was real, but was just not that interested in it. However, I try to shift almost every night, I shift sucessf…
Jury Duty triggered my CPTSD and turned the day into a humiliation ritual — TW: mentions of domestic abuse and attempted unaliving I'm not sure if this is the place to post something like this but sometimes in order to cope and make myself feel better, I write it all out an…
I made a safe life for myself, shed my defences, and now the crushing loneliness has finally surfaced. Anybody else? — After 6 years of therapy and building a safe and stable life, my coping mechanisms have faded away, and I am now faced with my core wound: soul crushing, terrifying, loneliness. Like I am going to die…
Lucid Dreaming: I asked myself if I should have a child, and the response was terrifying. — I’m a lucid dreamer, and I love asking questions while I'm under. Lately, the topic of having a child has been weighing on my mind, so I promised myself that the next time I realized I was dreaming, I…
36F Twice Divorced Now? — Really trying not to get down in the dumps. I married my high school sweetheart when I was 20. Divorced at 26. Married my 2nd husband at 28. Now divorcing at 36. With therapy, I've acknowledged I hav…
I (19F)am currently scared of my (20M) boyfriend — **TL;DR** I'd like to apologize in advance since I'm not exactly good at talking about my problems , especially since I've rarely posted on Reddit, but I feel like I'm at a loss right now and I genuin…
Lucid dream ssild — I set an alarm for 3 a.m. and had a really hard time waking up—I snoozed it like five times, but eventually I got up. I took citicoline, drank some water, and went to the bathroom. Once I made sure I …
Wonderful information in the introduction. I would love to get some personal insight from people who are familiar with Astal Projection. I'll keep it as short as possible. I have recently discovered t…
It's absolutely true that the outcome is you getting hurt. I just don't think you understand how terrifying it actually is. If you were that scared, you'd do the same. It is a survival instinct. Idk.…
Lol I actually understand perfectly. I have an anxious attachment and the tnought of being abandoned is just as terrifying to me. And actually no, I wouldn't do the same thing bc I'm not avoidant.
Thank you. That is most helpful. I will try those techniques suggested & they could definetly help. I think Schoold of Life did a video in which they suggested that dumpees try something similar. :…
I feel you. That thought of being used is terrifying, I know this might not be what you want to hear but you might be projecting past partners behaviour or fears on to him, as in, if others treat you …
Treat the space as space for YOU. Spend time by yourself, journal, listen to music, spend time with loved ones, and work on re-centering. I feel like it's easy to lose yourself in someone - or the ide…
Thank you for sharing this. Reading your post felt like someone handed me the secret playbook to my own current nightmare. I am on the other side of this dynamic—the anxious partner desperately in lov…
I feel for you, but I also feel for her. Was there a particular event where her avoidance got triggered? She said she was scared you'd not like her anymore when you found out about the real her. Tha…
I've had no contact with my DA ex since June. It was a difficult period in my life because of various reasons unrelated to the breakup. But one thing I started to realize, is that I'm old. Suddenly. A…
I really struggle knowing when I want to leave a relationship/dating situation if its because of my avoidance or if its genuinely a mismatch and it is so frustrating and terrifying. what if I'm making…
I had an issue with my cousin (who is also avoidant of things, we’ve discussed it before) and I carefully but firmly stated my needs and my solution to them. I was in total fear of having to follow th…
It's crazy to me people will treat you this way and not realize how objectifying it is. They don't care about the reasons you avoid, they just want you give them what they want. I feel similarly to y…
Throwaway account but 30f. I’m currently on a weight-loss plan, working more and really enjoying myself. I have so much more weight to lose but I’m starting to feel confident about myself again. I’d l…
Same. Unlovable and closed up. Not even sure if I’ll ever be able to open up again, which is also terrifying.
Grief is what happens when you lose something or somebody who you love, and it sounds to me like you’re trying to evade grief. Which makes sense, loss is terrifying and painful. At the same time, you …
Yeah I do agree with this. It is terrifying though. I am waiting to see how things are when we see each other in person since he may already have someone else.
We did everything together essentially if I wasn’t out by myself so it’ll be awhile. Since she already did this to me once I’m just so, so sad it happened again- literally just stay gone the first tim…
As a 5'2 human, this is terrifying. Lol.
Well, the end I've been suspicious of for weeks has finally happen. After a great January, she pulled away like she did months early when we first tried dating. I'm not blind sided. I have been mental…
> My biggest fear is it took years to find someone like her. The thought that it could eaily take just as long again is terrifying and mentally exhausting to think about. Just make sure you're not co…
>She was special, but she wasn't meant to be. I will find someone, I know I will. I'm worth it and will make someone happy. >Now on to whatever is next. My biggest fear is it took years to find some…
Any amount of self reflection or self awareness is terrifying to them and must be avoided at all cost.
You haven't found anyone after 4 years? I'm just over a year into separation and in a similar position to you. Another 3 years of this sounds terrifying. You have done well to get where you are consid…
This is interesting to me because I have been working for some time on a structural model that actually uses very similar imagery of a wheel. When I read this account, what the person describes did no…
okay , holy fock. Cuz just few days ago i said the same stuff to a friend and we mildly agreed. How did you just popped up after ı realized this?? we maybe even have a special system for each that wor…
I don't want you to be more alarmed, but this is terrifying behavior. Tell him that if he truly doesn't remember sending these texts, then he's having a mental health episode and he needs to go to t…
I would be absolutely scared the hell out of this, who knows what else was send, and to who? What did they send my parents? How long has this been going for? I *have* to figure it out immediately. Als…
Honestly. Sounds like too much weed. Possibly a green out? What you described happens to me if I don’t smoke weed for like a year and I have a joint it’s scary, but it’s also always very illuminating.…
I am reading your post and the thread below, and I just want to validate your exhaustion. When you feel like the world is collapsing and your safest memories are locked 12 years in the past, being tol…
This is literally how I feel when I do shifting attempts & it's the most terrifying feeling in the world 😭 I don't know how ppl just calmly leave their CR
Do you feel they chose to be that way with no supporting circumstances? The damage caused is terrifying and outrageous but there’s the fact that my father was given away to an abusive family, abandone…
This is way more common than people realize and honestly it might be the most important thing to bring up with your therapist. The irony is that the performance itself is clinical material. It's showi…
"People are used to men being scary" might possibly be one of the saddest and most terrifying things I've read in a long time. It says so much about society, and none of it good.
I try to listen to my body. Some days are tough, I try to be understanding and self compassionate with myself, which is hard due to the toxic inner critic. I have a photo of me as a baby and interac…
47m here, and I spent most of the last 30 years in a dissociated state, living in my mind or in books. I only paid enough attention to the outside world to make sure that my brain's life support syste…
Yes terrifying, me and my brother did as children
Overally Positive,but sometimes very intimidating or rarely terrifying experience.Met several reptilians,pleiadians,annunaki and grey hybrids small ones thru my life,lot of experience with these perso…
just 2 days shy of 2 weeks. anytime i had a crush on anyone in the past i felt like such a creep so i never made a move. i was 16 when this relationship started, and im 19 now, so dating in the more “…
I have truly let go a few times, and while at first it's terrifying, later I felt freed and much better. So I'll try to ride the wave more as you say. No matter how good it is tho, for now I keep comi…
Hmm, that sounds tough! I like what someone else said about top down vs bottom up therapy. I find myself being a little too analytical and in my head when trying to "fix" my trauma responses. I am a v…
You loved each other, but love alone isn’t enough to build a life on. From what you describe, this relationship has been struggling for years & a dead bedroom (it's a really major fact, why the relati…
He’s already said he’s not sure this is working out anyway. If you have to beg for a partner to stay, you’ll never be happy. And they will leave you some day regardless. I’m so sorry, I know it’s deva…
I do the same thing. I’ve been putting off calling a therapist for…maybe 6 years now? because every time I remember to, I think about how my parents never believed I was sick. And if I was sad, I just…
He’s developing mental illness and he needs psychiatric help IMMEDIATELY. I should know, I developed bipolar disorder at the same age it began. There is medicine now that can stabilize a lot of the s…
Mostly ghosts/spirits and demons, often seen and experienced by others besides myself at the same time. But the most pants-shittingly terrifying thing I've encountered is a Nalusa Chito - a Native Ame…
I had a few encounters in 2011 and possibly dating back to the age of about 13 with something called Asmodeus. Actually it started out as being whats normalised as sleep paralysis with s*xual content …
lol damn that’s insane. That’s cool though. That had to be terrifying
6 months? Get out of there. This is terrifying behaviour.