the scream

One time I saw a nephilim with a lopsided crown on form out of a shadow and grow until it was about 20 feet tall and it reached out its long lanky arms, and it's long pointy fingers emitted strings fr…

My mother is super affectionate now that I'm an adult and she has dementia. It disgusts me. — My mother doesn't remember the screaming, my mother doesn't remember her calling me stupid everyday, she doesn't remember her telling me to get out of her house. She talks to me now in a baby voice, s…

Took DMT first time the night before, watched Enter the Void on shrooms the next day. Now I think Im traumatised. — ​ So the night before, I did DMT for the first time. It was a lot. Colours I had never seen before, geometric shapes constantly moving and transforming, and a sense of presence that I still ca…

i told my mom the truth in front of everyone and now she won’t answer my calls — so we’re at my aunt’s place eating this dry ass chicken and my mom (50sF) is in that weird extra nice mood she gets sometimes and i swear that’s always when something goes sideways, she starts telling…

Dad threatened me with a gun weeks ago, i can't stop getting flashbacks — I (15F) was sitting in a desert area in my neighbourhood. I was listening to music and writing in my journal. I was staking this place out as somewhere to run away to if things ever got too bad at hom…

I always wonder if my mom is secretly mad that i left. — She fits into narcissism in most ways, and i think my sister now fits too, it's so sad growing up admiring her for standing up for what's right then end up just like our mom, as kids either of us were…

Filling the void Everytime it hits me so hard — everytime I try to fill the void of ur absence it's just not the same every time I'm trying to replace u my heart and soul is telling me this is all so wrong. this is not ur person it trying to get ov…

With a deep bow of gratitude 🙏 — With a deep bow of gratitude 🙏 I formed a poem on the forum in an earlier post I want to Thank you for turning invisible to visible with that I wink place my palms together and bow back and p…

Am I an abuser? How can I make a change? — It’s hard to live with the fact that you might be an abuser, or, are an abuser. I’m not sure if it’s the same, being an abuser or doing an abusive thing, but at this point the labels don’t matter, I’m…

Wake Up Call — My father was a narcissistic manipulator. It took me so long to realize that the way he was treating me and my mom was not okay. The biggest wake up call for me was when I was 13 or 14, it was such a …

what do i do? (advice HEAVILY appreciated) — \[TW for sexual objectification, medical, verbal, and physical abuse. COCSA and not being believed as a victim\] I’m 19, was ripped away from the state i lived my whole life in, was forced to move to…

The screaming is likely to be your abandonment wound. Good news is that you can't be abandoned because you're a self sufficient capable adult and only children can be abandoned. The more difficult pa…

Ranting about how my fearful avoidant traits are always fighting each other 😞 Though I’d say I’m leaning more towards avoidant. But sometimes the thought of “hmm… maybe I’m missing the point” strike…

Man, consider yourself lucky that she showed who she was this early and you were able to draw your conclusions. I’ve suffered emotional abuse for many years. Besides the screaming and the insults she…

Tbh I could easily read this. Uncommon for this but somehow you chose the right flow for me. I am pretty sure psy substances can enable us to do things like this. IMO we can train this with spirtual …

I think this is how mantras work lol. Except ignore the screaming in your head and go for ooommmmmmmmmmmm om om om 🕉❤ Best wishes xx

Csnt look my neighbours in the eye either... All the screaming and crying. Thanks for making me feel less alone with that one.

It has been over 40 years since my first astral projection, but I can remember it like it happened moments ago. It's something I'll never forget. It was 1978, before there was an internet, and I was …

I shall add to the screams (cuz same) AAAAAAAAAAAHEKWJSHEKDKEBGEVEKAAAAAAKEJWJDJSHGDUBAAAAAAAAAFUCKKNGJUSTENDWVERYTHINGQHGWAJAAAAAAAAAKAJSGWGAHBAB

I'm so sorry for you, your husband has moralized food to the point that not eating his way is a sin and he is condemning you for being "unclean" in his eyes. Let me offer an example of how this is s…

I agree with your page. The subconscious mind plays emotion and thought patterns, and people don’t know they live thru the same emotions and thought patterns. The shadow work is more 4D to 5D conscio…

I'd say there aren't many triggers that haven't originated from my nParents. They scrambled my neuronal processes quite thoroughly! It took me 7+ years with my partner for the screaming in my brai…

The neighbor kids called my house "The Screaming House". Enough said. Parents that gave their kids rides to things. (People would sometimes pick me up and give me a ride to school on really cold days…

The screaming house. Man, I'm no-contact now, and that is one thing I absolutely do not miss at all. The SCREAMING, going hoarse, full volume shrieking you have to hear multiple times a day just on an…

Oof we would have had the screaming house if the neighbors lived closer.

I didnt know that wild emotional swings were abnormal. My mom could make a compliment an insult. She would berate me in front of her friends and even my friends and say she gave up her life for me. Sh…

Yep. My house was the one my friends were not allowed to go to for sleepovers because of how verbally and physically my parents are. I know what it’s like to live in “the Screaming House.”

He's faking, being manipulative, and verging on abusive. This is next-level weaponised incompetence. These don't sound like genuine panic attacks. For one thing they are far too convenient, then ther…

The screaming/crying I heard from a child being attended to at a shelter for Katrina victims is a good example of trauma crying/screaming. It didn't sound like regular crying/screaming. It was more me…

I was the golden child. I didn't fully realize it until I was in high school (I didn't know the term but I knew I was the favorite). Growing up, I just tried to do anything and everything right. Anyth…

That kind of primal “NO” feels less like a literal prophecy and more like your nervous system showing you how overloaded the question already is. You set an intention before sleep, so your dreaming mi…

I'm the same way. I spend too much money giving my inner child everything it wants, I just bought my second real sword yesterday 😅 I have more stuffed animals than I know what to do with, but I can't…

I cut my father off when it became clear to me that I needed at least a week to recover from a phone call from him. The screaming and complaining got really old and I have three teenagers: They were…

If you really want to understand it, I highly recommend the book "chasing the scream". It's a really thorough and crazy insightful deep dive into the drug war from its beginnings all the way back in t…

I’m more of a parent to him than his mom or his paternal father have ever been. He told me if we divorce he wants to live with me because he can’t stop being around her and she is causing him to devel…