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Been there. I used to pride myself for being 'ambitious' when I was working tirelessly towards pointless achievements to feel some sense of being loved and accepted. When I did my best to be amazing a…

Finally in Dev!! Your input would help — This journey as a non-technical founder has shaved years off my life, but fuck it - I am in Dev and ready for this next stage!! 😤 Any suggestions on what I should be looking out for while in develop…

My mother sent my childhood abuser to my home, after I have been successful at making sure he never knows where I live. — Conversation is below. I have been very careful making sure my brother never knows where I live, as he beat me as a child so much police intervened and I was such a mess I was mandated to go to thera…

I finally moved away from my partner of 13 years. Fuck it's painful — I say finally but I have actually done this one and a half times before. But both times, we were still talking as if we were together, and were soon reunited. But this time, I literally forced myself …

First actually OBE — So today I had my first real OBE experience. Not really much but I was definitely exiting my body. I was listening 45minutes of f21 where I felt asleep. My Alexa woke me up after my timer endet and I …

Asian Male Experience Living in LA? — Hey what’s up fellas. I notice this community often recommends LA for single, young Asian guys looking to date. But I feel like a person’s LA experience depends heavily on which neighborhood they l…

4:44 — Well. It's 4:44 and I found myself immediately awake again. I took the advice of another experiencer and I went outside and meditated. It's been ages since I've seen anything in the skies and I saw a …

I (32m) found out my partner (32f) cheated on me while she was away on holiday. She doesn’t know that I know. How do I navigate this? — So I’ve been in a relationship with my girlfriend for 7 years now. We’ve had our ups and downs and have started to go to couples therapy (and we’re still going), trying to figure out our relationship.…

why do i keep sleeping w dudes on the first date ?? 😩 — basically just that. i (24f) love it in the moment, but once its over i feel so empty and wonky. last night i literally walked home because i just had to get out of there. the guy was nice and all but…

All Day Awareness.. — Today, I figured, I am going to use ADA. (for helping with Lucid Dreaming) What I take from actually using it, is kinda like looking at it as meditating throughout the day. If i notice my mind wander…

Ramblings of a lunatic (me) — This is gonna be extremely long so I don’t blame you if you don’t want to read it but I’ve been writing about it for a while and struggled with meaning and found this Reddit and thought I’d seek out s…

Triggered & Unexpected - HBD Hubby — It’s been a rough go of it. Yesterday I (HLF 39) realized I was trying but my heart wasn’t in it. Not in general, just In the moment I wished we weren’t together. He (LLM39) has his ups & downs but he…

IVF and my beautiful child and my sexually charged (not with me) wife. — I had no idea I was married to a narcissist. She is cold, calculated and beautiful. Great athlete too. Doesn’t light up a room by giving energy. She lights it up with a certain fear. Very successful. …

Should I have replied — I caused the break up I did I felt controlled constantly going through my phone even when there was no reason to apart from them finding pornography once .. this kept happening eventually I was like f…

Ndad is forcing me to do heavy labor knowing I’m chronically ill — I have been stuck with my parents for the past year and I’m finally getting out in a month or so to live with my partner. I have POTS, scoliosis, migraines, and hypermobility in several joints. Yes I …

Avoidance and love — Ok so I recently came to terms with knowing I’m an avoidant, people have told me before but recently it’s like too obvious for me to not face it, I’m 21F and I’ve never been a relationship, I’d say I’…

i want kids and most likely will not have them — I'm 15 and I've really wanted to be a mother my entire life. I was neglected in various ways and I decided because of that I will most likely never have kids. I wanted kids so I could make them feel …

I don't think it's reversible — The damage has been done. Kind of like in those kids that are not spoken to for years and lose their ability to speak. Despite \*teams of researchers\* (!) dedicating themselves to rehabilitation, suc…

Im autistic and I realized my boyfriend of three years (who I live with) doesn’t like me. — Im autistic and I’ve realized my boyfriend of the last three years (that I live with) doesn’t like me. So I 27f have been with my boyfriend (32m) for the last three years. We live together. He has a…

Venting — just wanted to vent as my brain has been keeping me awake so it's been near 4 months since we Broke up, we talked 2 months said our goodbyes, I said it didn't mean anything to me despite this relati…

I just want to share my story — My wife and I met as young airmen in the airforce at our first duty station. We dated for a year and then she got orders to overseas to Europe. We had talked a bit about getting married prior - and in…

I’m actually getting tired of this — I really really want to manifest an appearance change. I’ve been trying since last year December. I will admit that during that period, I did not have the highest self concept and I was contradicting …

Fuck this — Being divorced is like turning life on hard mode, so fuck it I’m just gonna stay married I need my balls drained consistently and sex was all we had amazing sex which makes it hard to divorce so I’m j…

I hate my ex so much, and I wish him nothing but awful things to happen to him for the rest of his miserable life. — That above statement probably makes me a bad person, but fuck it, I'll own it and accept it. I'm a bad person. My ex is the most horrible person I've ever met in my life. He is manipulative, judgment…

I hate my ex so much, and I wish him nothing but awful things to happen to him for the rest of his miserable life. — That above statement probably makes me a bad person, but fuck it, I'll own it and accept it. I'm a bad person. My ex is the most horrible person I've ever met in my life. He is manipulative, judgment…

Threw away hopefully my last pack of cigarettes and am pondering quitting smoking weed — My grandfather passed away last Monday, and his funeral was yesterday. And all this week, I've basically been running on adrenaline followed by deep exhaustion having to deal with funeral arrangements…

I’m going insane (rant) — I just got out of a 4 year relationship. I was sexually coerced for the first 2 and emotionally abused for the entire 4. My family is also abusive, so I have my mom cut off while my dad is in prison. …

Similar use case. We just said "fuck it: mysql". Which has come in pretty handy as we needed to change/add business logic. Static json file like you describe would have worked, but SQL has a lot o…

is “fuck it” a feeling? when activated but not yet acted on: tense, restless, twitchy, irritable. nearing claustrophobic and literal suffocation. *aka me, right now, searching for cabin rentals 5 h…

okay so I actually think I lean more towards anxious preoccupied attachment now… not that ChatGPT is always right but I used it not too long ago when I questioned my attachment style tbh and it made s…

Thank you for explaining in detail, it's very helpful. I'm sorry you had to struggle through trichotillomania without help. It's doubly painful to be in that position, getting yelled at when you need…

I appreciate your kind words. I’ve opened up about some of my struggles before. Only like two people. The first guy minimized my problems and would often change the topic to sex. He was never a good p…

He’s kind, smart, funny, confident, physically I’m attracted to him. He wants to talk about how shitty the world is right now. I dunno he just doesn’t have the hidden X factor ya know?? Hahah I swe…

Would love some opinions.... Been seeing this guy very casually for the past few months (we're both guys). I do genuinely enjoy spending time with him, and he's VERY spontaneous. I'm just not 100% su…

I'm quite an introverted woman and live in a small city so the dating apps suck. Found myself with a crush on a man that I deal with via work semi regularly who seemed nice and respectful and after th…

Almost the exact same thing happened to me recently. I went on a date with a girl last Sunday for coffee. I messaged her afterwards saying that it’s hard to tell after 1 date but I had a good time. We…

I'm pretty sure you're misunderstanding the word "connection". A lot of the time, it's simply shorthand for attraction or lack of attraction. Unrealistic expectations play a role in the challenges of …

I am spiraling bad right now, can someone help? 🫠  I had two nice dates with a guy the last weekend of January, we had sex and he said he might come visit me as i live in another city. No he hasn’t …

Should I just give up and get my first cat? Like I go onto these apps and get no matches and men don't respond when I message. I get that I'm ugly but... you know what, fuck it, I'm getting a cat.

Shit dude after my break and time off being over 30 gave me this "fuck it" feeling and I'll chat it up and if it's not reciprocated or off I just shrug and move on. Being older is great like the fear …

Realize how low the stakes of failing are. Approach anxiety is mostly fear of failure, but even if crash and burn, you're never going to see this woman again. The worst consequence is maybe you get so…

I feel you so much. I'm tired, I'm incredibly tired. I can't stand all of this anymore. I wish I could just fill my backpack, jump on a plane and go live somewhere remote where nobody knows me or wan…

Yeah, I was in a religiously dominant one. I was in opposition to it. Apparently I don’t fit in there. Seems like mentally I’m still there, although the pronouns have shifted to I. Seems like they’re …

I love being Asian, I love being an Asian Male, and I love being an Asian American Male. But yes we do have a disadvantage dating in the US. While it would be easier if i was a different race in Amer…

Fuck it, I'm just going to start hitting on people IRL in social situations. I'm not good looking enough for the apps, responses to the profile prompts get me nothing, the few matches I get answer onc…

47 here and no interest in living with anyone else. I've had too many people come into my life and space and fuck it up. My space and my money and my bills are mine, yours are yours.  It's not so mu…

this is not true. people cheat, lie, neglect, say awful things, treat their partner like shit. those things force a person to walk away, even if they really don’t want to. some partners are told over …

after she ended things it took me 4 months to actually get out of bed and start talking to people again. I wasn't afraid of rejection or expectations so I mainly started off just for shits and giggles…

Damn, I honestly believe my parents went out of their way to make me feel in the way... Apparently, they chose to focus on my brother, the Golden Child... He's the one that got to play Little League …

I don't diisagree. But i've had 500$ dollar VALUE epifany style sessions. Is disabled my life for the better, in a way tobsay i was not going to exist anymore, and it's been almost 9 years consecutive…

Well I sat on work crush’s phone number for a week and finally needed to text her for something the other morning. She hasn’t been in the office this week for the most part but we texted most of Wedne…

Ouch! My parents' generation just said fuck it and dated anyway if there was some policy like that. Got a lot of people in trouble at work, but to some people, love is more important than their job.

I've always imagined love is 100% more important than my job. I would say fuck it to my job in a heart beat, if it meant I can be with the love of my life. But now that I am older, I am not sure if it…

About 50% of yoga teachers are like this in yoga. "I've never seen anyone who can't stretch like this". Like hell, I'm hurting and absolutely at my limit. Give me a break please! Or: "Just push throu…

At the time we "agreed" upon might as well say role reversals, my youngest was 9. Agreed they are both Two capable individuals that can assist in picking up some more chores and delegated duties that …

Let him shoot up the club fuck it. Ain’t that sweet shop of love closed down anyway?

Dude, word for word I'm in the exact same position. I tried going full grey rock and it just wasn't right for me. Instead I offered marriage counseling bland being civil. Fuck it I'm going to lose her…

That's why I've said "fuck it". My cptsd symptoms present as paranoia. I've never fit in. Ever. And dealing with people has become an exhausting marathon that I don't care to run anymore. Through self…

Fuck it, let them rot in a nursing home paid for by Medicare and social security.

Look at it like this, she didnt for you. She does for him. I hope it pisses you off and forces you to move on instead of finding excuses to stay stuck on her ass, that Greg now occupies. She probably …

I still can’t wrap my head around it. I’m shifting between “okay fuck it I’m at peace with it fuck you and goodbye” to absolute misery and pity and longing for what we had. All those years, i thought …

Fuck it, lean in to it. The world is a mess, dating is hard, the illusions that carry you through your 20s have probably collapsed. Go live a little.

If yes to insurance: take the car period. If yes to lockpicking, get phone and other electronics when the opportunity arises. Be gone before family gets back. Tbh, take the car. Fuck it. You can al…

I think your family looking out for your best interests (or what they perceive as your best interests) is one thing. I think threatening something so severe is totally unreasonable. Realistically, it…

Hey, I hear you. I was a victim of IPV as well. People also downvoted me. I don’t care. Abuse is abuse. I won’t coddle abuse. My abuser was also very self-aware and always apologized after abusing me.…

Sooo has she blamed you as causing this to happen and it was your fault? Or taken full accountability? Yes, the water is clouded both by her cheating and that you briefly joined in. But the proble…

I, like you, was getting a lot of ED with guys in our age group. I'm 46f and I was too scared for years to explore my sexuality. I finally said fuck it. I've been hooking up with younger guys (25-35) …

I ap'd for what felt like an hour this morning, was awesome.  I woke up around 3am after a massive sleep, fell asleep around 730 I guess.  I was like fuck it in just gonna meditate and meditated f…

Hm you can find a lot of people disagreeing with the post which also brings me back to the point that human experience is subjective and each one of us have our own ways to relate to things and explai…

About 8 years ago I had a house party and was sitting outside talking to some people. My favorite band came on and I heard a woman's voice next to me say, "oh, this is my favorite band". I hadn't seen…

Went out with a travel nurse recently. We went out, great date, hang for 2 days but then her contract ended and she left my town shortly after. Random text comes in 6 weeks later and it’s her, she’s g…

I tried so hard to scroll past this comment but fuck it, I’ll bite. What AngryJanitor said is true: both of your points are as pointless as each other. But they can also be as helpful as each other.…

Well there is the serenity prayer. I guess you know what that is. It is popular in the 12 step groups. And then the short form of it is "fuck it". It works. You could say "drop it" or "let go and…

It doesn't hurt to try. But don't expect anything. That's as good as dead gets. There was a match 3 weeks ago that was my type, we exchanged one message and nothing. I was at my (married) friends hou…

Sometimes the simplest thing to say is the hardest to accept: it is what it is 🤷🏻‍♂️ You can replay every scenario in your head—every conversation, every argument. You can analyze every word that w…

When he went from an atheist to uber religious seemingly overnight. I was supportive, and then he started saying our marriage wasn’t recognised in the eyes of god, we can’t have kids anymore, and trie…