I guess by fun, I mean a little more playful/spontaneous/open to things.

Similarly, I sometimes feel like I don't know if I'm happy or content. Like, if I'm laughing, I know I'm happy, but if I'm in a more neutral state it can be harder to read. I've broken up with people …

I think it’s more the latter. I’ve always had a hard time articulating what I want and being confident in that. I think that’s why I’m attracted to people who just know, in the hopes it’ll rub off on …